Real?

Where did you come from? I don't know why you would fall for a girl like me and treat me like a queen. I can't believe how lucky I am to have found you. No, you are not what I expected and I was hesitant at first but, I know that you will love me forever just as I will love you always. I can't believe this is happening to me. Is this real?

My own decision

So what if people tell me that they do not approve of my choices. I am capable of making my own decisions and if they don't agree with them then they can deal with it. I am in love with someone I know will take care of me and I know that I can tell him anything and I can be myself. He makes me laugh and feel safe. He treats me so well. If others can't see how right he is for me, that is their own problem. I love him.

Chuck-o-Rama

I have never met anyone who treats me better than Ralph. He not only treats me with respect he also treats my family with a bunch of respect and everyone else. It is so refreshing! Today my adventure of the day was going to chuck-o-rama with Ralph, Stephanie and Nathan. We ate a whole bunch and then we went to the mall and looked at stuff. I had an amazing time and I was so happy.

trust

Trust is so important to me. I lost someone who I loved very much because I lost his trust because I played to his emotions instead of being honest. It is so hard for me to tell someone exactly how I am feeling. I try my  hardest to explain but sometimes it comes out all wrong. It has been a really frustrating weakness until I met Ralph. I can usually tell him exactly what I am thinking and how I feel. It is so easy to be real around him, but when it seems like everyone who I talk to thinks that I am faking it and that I don't really love him because I am just using him as a rebound, it makes me MAD! The one time when I feel like I don't have to pretend around a guy no one believes that it is real. Someone Believe me please! Trust me.

comparison

Comparison. Why do I feel the need to always compare myself to others? Why do I get down on myself when I can't have the same gifts as someone else? Why does it seem like everyone likes her more than me? Why can't I be her? Why can't I look like a model and have a million friends and have everyone love me and date anyone? Why am I me? Where is my confidence in myself? She has confidence. Trust God. That's all that I can do. He made me with my flaws for a reason and he made her strengths for a reason. Trust. He does not compare. He only love. Loves me with my flaws. He loves her but he loves each child individually. He loves me too. There is no comparison. 

Angel

It hurts when you give your heart and trust to someone and they end up leaving you in pain with a torn up heart. But as much as that hurt it can be mended. It only takes someone to listen and to care. It takes someone with the guts to not judge but to teach. It takes an angel. I found mine.