ha! I was reading my post and I think I might have to change the title of my blog to ny adventures with Josh :)

Homework Party!

Its pretty amazing when my adventure of the day is doing homework with my most favorite guy in the entire world! :)

My adventure today was small but wonderful. I not only got to learn a lot about my boyfriend Josh, I also learned some things about myself. I think the more I know Josh, I discover more about myself. It is pretty awesome that something as little as talking and trying to understand someone else can become a great adventure. I hope to have a similar adventure every day. I want to understand and learn about people including myself. Who am I really?

Hum, Valentines day. Why is it that I almost always end up in tears on valentines day? No, the answer is not "I don't have a boy" because even though I had a boy I still ended up in tears. My man is amazing, don't get me wrong, but he tends to say things that is not very nice and today I just could not handle it. However, I learned a few things from tonight. One, he really does care about me he just doesn't think about what he says sometimes. Two, he can put up with the bad side of me. Three, there is so much that I don't know about him and I want to know him even more. He is a wonderful person, just very blunt and honest.

Adventure with friends

Today was great! I Hung out with a super awesome guy today and then I got to see my best friend in the entire world! Bryanne! We roasted hotdogs at the river wood mall and it was awesome. and then went to a smell goody lotion and spray yummy store and sniffed all the try me things and then we decided to make our body scrub stuff at Bryanne's house and then we watched veggie tails. I am so tired and cant think straight. Good night.

Today I had two tests and I did really bad on one of them. After my tests I went laser tagging with my boyfriend Josh and his friends. I felt really out of place with everyone. I did have fun but I felt cut off from the group. I do not like not being a part of a group. I felt so alone and I wanted to hide somewhere and cry. Josh is so outgoing and I am just quite. I don't know what people want to talk about. They were all talking about past incidents that I was not a part of. They would talk about movies that I have never seen. Why am I so bad at being with people when the thing I fear the most is being alone? I am not the kind of person who can just be the center of attention. I am so upset with myself! why am I so ridiculously retarded? What talents do I have? Am I worth anything? Josh deserved better. He deserves one of those hot chicks from his ward who are fun and exciting. Better than me.

I met the most amazing guy only a week ago. We went on an awesome date, Divine comedy. I have seen him everyday after that. I cannot believe how fast I have fallen for this guy! I am so happy.